by Clare Banham
Just to give some hope to you ladies who have been through a miscarriage I was told by doctors for 10 years that I would never be able to have children. I fell pregnant and was so happy, it was all I had ever wanted. When we went for 12 week scan, they told me baby had died and my whole world fell apart. People said nasty things like 'well there must of been something wrong with it'. I would think it is not an 'it', its my baby.
6 months later I fell pregnant again this time with twins. I got to 10 weeks and started to bleed. I went to hospital where they told me one twin had died and things didn't look good for other
I had to wait a week to have another scan - it was the worst week of my life. I knew deep down this one had died, and again I felt so alone. I went for the scan and my fears came true. The other twin had died.
Everyone kept saying the same old things. 10 months later I fell pregnant again with another set of twins! Doctors gave me an early scan at 6 weeks and we saw both heartbeats. It was so magical but I couldn't enjoy it as I was so worried it would all end in tears.
Again at my 12 week scan they told me one of the twins had died. I just cried alone thinking when was the other one going to leave me? I took one day at a time and got to 23 weeks when I started to bleed. I was kept in hospital over night and the bleeding stopped.
My baby was fine. I managed to keep this little angel.
She is now nearly two and love her to bits. I still miss my other four angels and I hope this can give someone the hope that no one gave me. Good luck to all you ladies out there.
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