#misCOURAGE story, 21/04/2017, by anonymous
It was the beginning of December and I was taking my children to get some Christmas photos done for the family.
That morning I woke up with tummy and lower back pain, which I thought was odd as I had only just come off my period or so I had thought, anyway the pain got worse as the day progressed, it felt like a burning in my stomach and I had pain in my shoulder.
I'll called my GP who saw me straight away.
The first thing she asked me was if I could be pregnant, and I replied no way as I had just finished my period, she felt my tummy, examined me and made me do a pregnancy test, the test can back positive and she sent me straight to A&E.
I did another test here which are back negative, doctor examined me and then sent me home and told me to come back in the morning for a scan.
I felt so ill by this point I was dizzy and my stomach felt like it was on fire.
Managed to get some sleep and went back in the morning, I waited 4 hours for a scan, and was told I would have to be admitted immediately for surgery as I had internal bleeding.
The rest was a haze my blood pressure dropped so low and I couldn't stand.
They rushed me in to theatre and ended up removing the pregnancy and my right Fallopian tube. It was terrifying. I recovered physically quite quickly, but still feel such guilt for having an operation to remove a well baby.
I have now just found out I'm pregnant again and I'm terrified.
I'm scared it will happen again. I feel selfish in a way because I already have 3 beautiful children, and I'm putting their mothers life in risk.
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