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This is Freja and Ian's story...Long waited, short lived but loved forever.

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#misCOURAGE story, 05/06/2017, by Ayda

This is Freja and Ian's story...Long waited, short lived but loved forever. 

Freja and Ian are IVF twins, due to my PCOS we couldn't fall pregnant on our own and decided to go with IVF, like miracle at the first trial we were so lucky and fell pregnant to our beloved Freja and Ian.

My pregnancy was a dream pregnancy, no complications, until my doctor had travelled at week 20 and I had to change doctors. Since they were twins, I had doctor appointments every other week.

At week 23, I had started urinating frequently and I told my concern to my doctor; she thought one of the babies was pressing my bladder. 

2 days later I started losing mucus and I had excruciating pain. We rushed back to the hospital, checked by the doctor; they ran some tests and they had detailed scan and told me I had infection and my pain was IBS cramps and sent home. 

Nothing got any better, on the other hand I started having more pain which was apparently contractions. On August 4 2017, we rushed back to the hospital to find out I was 9mm dilated and my daughter was already in the canal.

They were only 24 weeks. I was sent to another hospital where there is a 4 grade Neonatal unit. 

When I was taken to the birth room, I had to calm the doctors down and do something else rather than to rush me, just to give them a little bit more time. They gave me me medication to control the contractions to have time for steroid injections. 

After 5 days at the delivery room, my son Bree shed and we had to go with emergency c-section. 

I gave birth to two wonderful children on August 11 2017.

They were rushed to NICU where my daughter spent 28 days and my son 50 days.

I lost them both, different reasons. My daughter had an infection which led to sepsis and my son had lung bleeding. 

If the first doctor I had gone to run a simple urine tests and controlled the infection; or the second one examined my cervix and admitted me; my children would be alive now. 

I just want all mothers know how important infection is and to trust your instinct more. 

I knew something was terribly wrong when I started urinating a lot, but I believed in my doctor.

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