Red are my cheeks, flushed at the thought,
Being pregnant again, I wasn’t so sure.
Oh god, the two pink lines are there,
I should be excited but man, I’m scared.
Orange juice spills down my now shaking hand,
As I spill the beans to my anxious husband.
We’re smiling of course but they’re nervous smiles,
Thinking of our loss before, and subsequent trials.
Yellow leaflets handed to me by the rushed midwife,
No time to reassure me, this will end in a life.
My sickness comes and it’s somewhat nice to know,
That it’s a positive sign that inside me life grows.
Green with envy, that others need not worry like I,
Others have not needed to cry like I’ve cried.
But others will not know how love increases,
When your heart has once been shattered to pieces.
Blue days are now over even though I’ll never forget,
The baby who I never actually met.
But the baby that no doubt will on forever,
In my future child, making them even better.
Indigo skies fall as the pains worsen and we expect an arrival,
I breathe and dream that there is nothing but survival.
He’s finally here,it seems after such a fight,
In my arms at last, it’s such a beautiful sight.
Violet rays through the window for its a new day,
‘Worth it all’ to him I softly say ,
I’ll remember the loss and remember it well
But he’s here now and there’s no time to dwell.
This poem is dedicated to the rainbow babies out there, those beautiful babies who bring added anxiety, worries and stress to their parents through the pregnancy. But also bring extra happiness, love and fulfilment when they arrive.
(Inspired by our JoJo. The happy, jolly, needy rainbow baby of ours.)
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