We got married in 2007 and decided to try for a baby straight away. Nothing could have prepared us for the journey ahead. I tested every month and just never got pregnant!
2 years later I finally had a positive test but I unfortunately miscarried at 6 weeks. I went on to have 3 rounds of IVF, and got pregnant every time, but again miscarried every time. The last miscarriage I was pregnant with twins and lost one about 6.5 weeks and the other at 8 weeks.
By this stage I was diagnosed with 3 blood clotting disorders, high killer cells, 1 mangled left tube and to top it off a very high FSH. I felt that I still had to try one more time.
This time with all the right treatment and drugs I carried my twin boys till I was 38 weeks pregnant. My dreams had come true...finally!!!
5 years later in February of this year I had a surprise positive test. Having another wasn't on my radar, but we were over the moon and honestly thought getting straight on the appropriate injections would ensure everything would be fine.
Unfortunately I miscarried again at 7 1/2 weeks. We were devastated and at nearly 40, I felt it was my last chance.
I will never forget any of the babies I lost, they will be with me forever and I honestly don't think people know the pain it causes. I realise I am very lucky to have my twin boys and will cherish them forever!
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