My biggest worry is the thought of having to go through a third miscarriage

Katherine suffered a missed miscarriage with her first pregnancy. Her second resulted in another miscarriage earlier this year.

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March 2016

by Katherine

We only started trying for a family in January 2015 and we’d expected to have a few months to get our heads around the idea, so a positive pregnancy test in February left us shocked, but very happy. I suffered morning sickness, but it started to dwindle off around week 9, but I didn’t worry too much.

We went for our 12-week-scan cautiously excited. A friend suffered a missed miscarriage a few years ago, so we were mindful of not getting too carried away.

Sadly, the sonographer told us we’d lost our baby. We felt numb as I was booked in for a D&C on the Monday, three days later. We went through a range of emotions that weekend and, spent lots of time crying and hugging each other. I tried so hard to put on a brave face because I felt so worried about my husband and my family and, wanted to protect them from the awful pain.

All we could do was carry on. We booked a holiday, then planned to start trying again when we returned. The day we arrived home I had a phone call from the doctor to say I was meant to be in hospital that day.

I’d received a letter while I’d been away to say I needed emergency tests

The doctor explained that they had sent tissue for analysis after the D&C and discovered a partial molar which causes the placenta to grow abnormally and can, in some cases, result in cancerous cells. It was a shock, but the worst thing by far was being told we wouldn’t be able to start trying again for six months. We were very aware of our age and it was a real blow.

After regular blood and urine tests I got the all clear in late summer and by October I was pregnant again. The morning sickness disappeared again and, I just felt something wasn’t right so we booked an early scan at 10 weeks.

The night before our appointment I started spotting which, we knew wasn’t a good sign, but I held on to a little bit of hope. Unfortunately the scan confirmed the bad news. I’m almost glad I was prepared for it this time, that I wasn’t given the worst news possible whilst lying on a hospital table filled with hope.

I guess I, like many people, thought a miscarriage was like a heavy period. Thank God I did some research online which prepared me more for the four days of heavy bleeding and very painful cramps. I went for a D&C because they wanted to test again. I’m still waiting for the results.

I guess we’re in limbo. On a practical level I’m trying to stay positive. I look at the odds, read the positive stories, but you can’t help but overthink everything and worry.

Mostly I worry about having another miscarriage

Right now I can’t even begin to think about it not happening for us at all and, I know there’s lots of help available to us. To be honest, my biggest worry is the thought of having to go through a third miscarriage. The idea that we could try again, then 12 weeks later go through all that physical and emotional pain again is something I can’t really get my head around at the moment.

One miscarriage is such a massive ordeal and, yet you have to go through three before you can get any help. I understand that it comes down to money and budgets but it feels incredibly cruel and, I can only think that the people making these decisions can’t possibly have suffered miscarriages themselves.

People don’t really talk about miscarriage, and yet when you begin to have a conversation about it you discover so many women have suffered. That’s what Tommy’s is doing, it’s starting that conversation.

As I lay there, having my last miscarriage, I spent a lot of time desperately searching the internet and I came across other people’s stories. Reading about other people’s experiences was unbelievably helpful and incredibly comforting.


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