Journey to and beyond the rainbow

Still born, still loved. Wrong place, right time. Recurrent miscarriage, recurrent heartache. Brightest stars Brightest rainbow.

#misCOURAGE story

Heartbreaking stories. Devastating stories. The miscarriage story needs to change. That's why we've created Tommy's book of #misCOURAGE. Read this story now and help spread the word that miscarriage can no longer be ignored. Help us change the story to save babies' lives.


#misCOURAGE story Shannon Caldwell,

July 22nd 2015 - I'm pregnant! The excitement was overwhelming... until the problems started in September, our baby had too much fluid surrounding him and on October 19th, we found out our beautiful baby's heart had stopped beating and I gave birth on October 22nd 2015 to our baby boy, Charlie at 16 weeks. Later we found out it was an undeveloped heart valve.

February 20th 2016 - I'm pregnant again! A week after finding out, I started bleeding and was advised to visit my early pregnancy unit, where an internal scan showed an ectopic pregnancy, our hopes were shattered again as I had methotrexate treatment.

May 2016 & August 2016 - More heartache! As we experienced two more early miscarriages! We were beginning to lose all hope in completing our family.

October 2016 - There they are again, those 2 pink lines. I wished my pregnancy away, there was no way i could relax and enjoy being pregnant. After every scan showing baby was healthy and developing properly, I would be counting down the hours until the next time I could see my baby on the screen again.

June 21st 2017 - My rainbow arrived. 4 weeks early, weighing 5lbs12 and perfect in every single way. Oliver Charlie Caldwell changed my world forever.

Fast forward to September 2017 - There they are again, those 2 pink lines!!! I was stunned but i was ignorant, everything would be okay with this little one, because we had Oliver and he was perfectly healthy.

October 22nd 2017 - i was in perfect bliss, it's our wedding day!! And my baby was growing healthy in my tummy, the scan showed everything developing normally.

Throughout the day, i noticed bleeding. And on the eve of our wedding, there it was again, the pain and blood and heartache and our 5th angel had passed away.

Still born, still loved.
Wrong place, right time.
Recurrent miscarriage, recurrent heartache.
Brightest stars
Brightest rainbow.

Rainbow and Angels.

Love always,

Mummy and daddy.


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