So as everyone does when they find out there pregnant they are excited and worried at the same time. But my excited didn't last long within 3 days off finding out I was pregnant. I had a small bleed, doctors just kept telling me to wait it out.
Could be anything until I kept going on and on. They made me wait. Told me it was 'fine' because I had no cramps or no more bleeding.
I got to 7 weeks 2 days and finally managed to get emergency scan. They told me everything was looking fine, but she kept repeating are you sure your 7 weeks. I was adamant due to tracking my cycle I was 7 weeks.
They sent me on my way telling me my baby b was a slow grower and baby b would catch up. To then starting to enjoy it a bit more.
Thinking of names and what he/she would like. But everyone know and then I would have pain and tiny bit of blood. And I just kept getting told everything was fine. Until I got another emergency scan at 11 weeks. That the baby had stopped growing.
I felt my heart break, that was it. I got no answers. Just a leaflet, and the same thing everyone tells you. This happens all the time.
I had to wait 2 weeks for my miscarriage to start. And then no one warned me how long and painful and how much blood I would loose.
I was traumatised and just couldn't stop crying all day. I just couldn't get my head round what was going on.
I felt ill. Finally it stopped in the evening I thought it was all over. Until few days later the pain was back. It kept happening. Until I had another scan to find out the remnants of the baby was still there I opted to have a surgical removal the next day.
To this day I still haven't quite got used to the fact I'm not still pregnant maybe one day. I can have a successful pregnancy and not have the pain I felt when loosing baby b.
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