Back in 2014 on Mother's Day I was getting ready to go meet my husbands family for a meal. I had been bleeding for a few days with no pain and just assumed I was having my period.
My 'period pains' got quite severe but I persevered and got ready to go and meet my family. I went to the toilet to change my tampax and bam I had an early miscarriage and held the little thing on a piece of tissue in my hand.
I had never been through it before and didn't even know I was pregnant.
The mix of emotions I felt was crazy. I went out and asked my husband not to go in to the toilet, I felt ashamed that I had not known and guilt over the miscarriage immediately.
I rang my mum who came over and we all went up the hospital together. I stayed in overnight on a ward with new born babies which literally tore my heart out. I finally cried myself to sleep and had a scan the next day where it was confirmed I had had a full miscarriage.
The devastation I felt was unbelievable, the what ifs, the guilt especially as I had no idea was overwhelming and I felt completely alone even though I had so many amazing people around me.
I felt no one knew what I was going through and struggled through the next few months. I felt people were looking at me thinking it's only a miscarriage get over it and felt angry at the world.
I want people to know they are not alone, there are probably quite a few of your 'friends' on FB who have been through the same, it's just not spoken about and that's why I am speaking out, I have had a miscarriage and come through it and you can too!
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