I lost my 2nd baby at what I thought was 21 weeks I'd been upset a lot about things so I didn't realise I'd miscarried at 16 weeks.
I went to the doctors because I was scared something was wrong they arranged for me to have a scan the same day so once I'd got to hospital I found out my beautiful baby was gone.
It took 8 months after I'd giving birth to find out I'd had a boy.
They had no idea why it happened.
I got him cremated my 1st and health beautiful boy couldn't understand why his mammy wasn't bringing his baby brother home he cried for 3 hours straight.
My 1st born had just turned 2 years 3 days before I'd giving birth I don't know what happened or why it happened but I blame myself each and every day.
My 1st born named my beautiful rainbow baby Rory. He was so very tiny.
The hospital I gave birth to him in was very sweet and helpful. At the end of it all they gave me a keepsake memory box with photos and little things in I added a few things of my own.
It's never been opened since Rory turned 4years old on 6th October and I felt bad every year on his birthday I feel the same way.
On 5th October 2012 I found out at my 20weeks scan I'd miscarried my 2nd baby he'd past away at 16weeks.
They told me I had to go back next day to give birth.
I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy on 6th October 2012 but it took them 8months after the ordeal to tell me I'd had a little boy.
He was so very tiny my 1st born named him Rory, he'd just turned 2years old 3days before I'd found out.
He didn't understand why I wasn't bringing his baby brother home.
We had him cremated but there was no ashes or anything.
The hospital was so kind and made us a memory box with little keepsake things in for our rainbow baby.
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