Story by Vicki,
We lost our beautiful baby Russell at 9 weeks and 1 day.
I had experienced bleeding for 10 days. 5 days after the bleeding started we saw our little baby’s heart beating on a scan and growing well.
It felt like a miracle. 5 days later the bleeding worsened and a scan showed the baby’s heart has stopped that morning - the 20th December 2018.
The pain we felt was all-consuming.
We have 2 boys already (5 & 3) but this baby was loved and wanted. We had planned our little last dream together and were excited about holding a baby in our arms again.
I miscarried our beautiful little one the next day at home and saw their perfect little form.
We took it back to the hospital and the remains will be cremated with other lost little ones at a short service at the crematorium.
We will attend and say goodbye.
Nothing prepares you for this devastating loss.
We hadn’t told a lot of people that we were having another baby but I have told people that we have lost a baby as I don’t want my beautiful angel to be a secret.
Rest in peace beautiful xxx
I never found out the reason for my miscarriage. Without an explanation, you start to blame yourself
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After giving birth to her son Noah in 2012, Faye and her husband Dean had 3 miscarriages. In 2015, Faye took part in the PRISM trial led by researchers at Tommy’s National Centre for Miscarriage Research. Her daughter Leila was born in 2016.
I was a broken mess and I felt like my grief was wrong because it wasn’t a real baby, like I was being dramatic, over-the-top.
Toni and her husband Matt had a miscarriage in 2015 which left Toni with PTSD. The couple live in Leicester with daughters Phoebe and Willow. This is Toni's story.
Roslyn and Paul from South Ayrshire in Scotland had an early miscarriage before getting pregnant with their first daughter Ava who is now 4 years old. They went on to lose another 3 babies before getting a referral to Tommy’s National Centre for Miscarriage Research at University Hospital in Coventry. Their second daughter, Ciara, was born in April 2019 and is now 7 months old.
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