Lost dream

Nothing prepares you for this devastating loss.

Story by Vicki,

We lost our beautiful baby Russell at 9 weeks and 1 day.

I had experienced bleeding for 10 days. 5 days after the bleeding started we saw our little baby’s heart beating on a scan and growing well.

It felt like a miracle. 5 days later the bleeding worsened and a scan showed the baby’s heart has stopped that morning - the 20th December 2018.

The pain we felt was all-consuming.

We have 2 boys already (5 & 3) but this baby was loved and wanted. We had planned our little last dream together and were excited about holding a baby in our arms again.

I miscarried our beautiful little one the next day at home and saw their perfect little form.

We took it back to the hospital and the remains will be cremated with other lost little ones at a short service at the crematorium.

We will attend and say goodbye.

Nothing prepares you for this devastating loss.

We hadn’t told a lot of people that we were having another baby but I have told people that we have lost a baby as I don’t want my beautiful angel to be a secret.

Rest in peace beautiful xxx

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