Story by Anonymous,
After falling pregnant with my second child, a much longed for daughter, life felt perfect.
Too perfect perhaps. Soon the dream began to unravel.
I suffered bleeding from week 16 and it never stopped.
All scans showed my daughter was perfect and that the placenta was fine.
However, after suffering episodes of major bleeding, my placenta likely abrupted and my daughter arrived at 24 weeks and 5 days.
She was very unwell as well as premature.
She suffered from acute pneumonia and died after 13 days.
It has been the darkest time of my life and I still have no answers - my placenta just wasn't right. Holding her as she died in my arms will always haunt me.
The guilt and grief are intense but slowing we are re-building our lives.
I got to finally give my boy a cuddle and we held him and sang to him as he took his last breath.
If there is only one thing you take away from reading my story and Lukas’s, please take away 'hope'.
We've kept the eye mask he wore, to remind us of everything he made it through.
"I hope our story gives couples some reassurance that there is light at the end of the tunnel because after 9 miscarriages we have our miracle on the way"
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