Me and my husband have been trying for baby number six since august 2014.
We had our first positive test in September 2015.
After a few weeks I started to bleed. After an emergency scan we were told it looked like I was 5 weeks and 1 sac and pole where visible, and suspected loss of a twin. We had a repeat scan 2 weeks later and we where told baby hadn't developed and needed tablets to help it come away.
We cried and cried found comfort in our children then bang.
January comes and we get our positive again so a happy start 2016.
Had early scan at 6 weeks and everything was good. We was over joyed. New happy tears.
Dating scan came march 29th we were excited to see our magic bean. As soon as the image flick on the screen I knew it wasn't right I started repeating that babies to small and there's no heart beat tears rolled down my cheek as she confirmed our baby had died.
After a failed medical attempt we had to have surgery to remove the as they say products of conception.
He had made 11 weeks 4 day I walked numb for ages all I saw was pregnant women , id get angry so mad jelous upset and moody to point i would want to go home.
Its now October 2016 and we had our positive 2 weeks ago should be around 5 weeks.
I'm filled with happiness, joy, fear worry dread and anxiety but I'm holding hope our rainbow will come June 2017.
And we will hold our baby
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