The truth is I'll never be okay because I can't go back to that time to change anything

There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of her and the gorgeous woman she would have turned out to be.

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October 2016

On November 2nd 2015 I found out I was pregnant. I was 6 weeks gone already, I had no clue what to do or what to say as I was only 15.

There was so many emotions running through me, one minute I was smiling the next crying, I had no clue what I was going to do.

I had been to the midwife got everything sorted and I was due my first scan on December 12th, my boyfriend and I were so happy that we were going to see our baby for the first time....

Then it came to December 2nd, I had felt fine all day no stomach ache, no signs...

Early next morning I had jumped in the shower before getting ready for college and as I were showering I seen blood on the shower floor, I thought I had just cut myself while shaving.

I then noticed that it was clots of blood... I panicked and called for my sister to call our mum to come quickly. As soon as my mum seen the blood she knew I had to go to hospital..

I got to the hospital they sent me to the maternity ward to get a scan done just to make sure everything was okay. I couldn't hear a heartbeat or see anything on the monitor.

The nurses spoke between themselves then called for a specialist to come.

That's when they told me I had misscarried... I was still in shock and didn't know what to do.

All these doctors and nurses running round, my mum was filling out forms for me. I had to undergo a D&C as my placenta had doubled its original size.

It was the most heartbreaking thing to happen in my life, ever.

A few days later after I had been discharged from hospital I got a phone call from the hospital asking if I wanted to know the sex of the baby I had lost... I would have had a baby girl....

Now to this day I still blame myself for what happened, I think what could I have done different to prevent it happening but there was nothing at all I could have done.

I see a councillor once a week to talk about how I feel, how I'm doing, but the truth is I'll never be okay because I cant go back to that time to change anything... There's not a day that goes by that I dont think of her and the gorgeous woman she would have turned out to be.

Elle Amy Campbell 12-02-2015

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