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From the moment I found out I was pregnant I knew there was something not quite right.

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From the moment I found out I was pregnant I knew there was something not quite right. I kept having little bleeds and got sent for 2 early scans, both came back normal.

On the day of my 12 week scan my baby was only showing 10 weeks, even though I knew I should be over 12.

That night I started bleeding and got sent to the hospital although I wasted 3 hours sat around as they couldn't scan me, they told me to ring back in the morning for an early scan (again) and when I rang the next day the lady on the phone said I had to wait 2 weeks as I had only had a scan the day before, even after explaining I was getting pains and bleeding more. A few days had passed and things got worse.

I had the worst pains ever and the bleeding a lot worse. I rang the hospital and they told me to go A&E. As soon as I put the phone down and stood up I was covered in blood. I got rushed to hospital in a ambulance then it went down hill from there.

I was suffering a haemorrhage and bleeding to death.

I had the choice to wait until the morning for a scan or go for an operation to remove the pregnancy. I was going to wait but then things got worse. I had passed out for over an hour with a crash team of 8 people working on my to bring me back around.

I was left with the hardest choice of my life, one I still regret today, I could wait and risk loosing my life and let my 2 year old grow up without his mum or I could have the operation to save my life.

At this point I was scared and thought I was going to die so I signed the forms for the operation. It was the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life.

Although I got told by different doctors "there is a very high chance you have already lost your baby" I still sit there now thinking "if only I waited until morning"

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