I started trying for a baby when I was 18. Nothing was happening, then one night I was at work and I lifted something heavy all of a sudden I cramped up turned white and felt sick. I could feel I was bleeding, but didn't know what was wrong. I went to A&E where they did a pregnancy test and confirmed I was pregnant.
I couldn't believe it, but before I could take it in, I had to have a scan and then they told me I had a early miscarriage!
After a year, I fell pregnant again but started spotting after a few weeks. I knew something was wrong and had to go into hospital. They couldn't see anything in my womb and thought I was ectopic, but after having surgery they told me I had miscarried again. I never got any support through this from any doctors or nurses.
Two months later it happened again! I couldn't believe this, I couldn't help but wonder "what is wrong with me?". This time, I was a little further along. I had all the tests done but everything came back fine.
About 6 months later, I was pregnant again this time felt different. I didn't spot, so I thought this could be it, I would finally have my baby. That was until one day I went to the toilet and it was bright red.
I was bleeding, but my tummy was sore this time not crampy
They soon realised I was having an ectopic pregnancy and was taken to theatre. I ended up losing my fallopian tube along with my baby. I couldn't take it any more. Sadly, me and my partner decided to separate.
2 years later I was with pregnant by my current partner, when I miscarried again around 6/7 weeks. We went for IVF hoping this would help, having two embryos transferred to my womb so I would have a better chance. The wait felt like forever until on test day I got my 2 lines showing I was pregnant. Soon after I bled and lost the pregnancy they called it a 'chemical pregnancy'.
I still don't know what's wrong with me doctors say nothing is the problem I am seeing a specialist soon so I'm hoping I will get my rainbow baby one day x
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