I always thought getting pregnant and having a baby was easy! So, when my husband and I started trying we were super excited when I fell almost straight away. However, from the beginning I bled. Scan after scan showed a sac with no sign of life, till eventually I felt it pass and saw my happiness in a square of tissue.
We started again a few months later. Again I fell quickly. I put all my hopes on my baby, my precious bundle, to stop the hurt I felt. Again the bleeding started! Again, scan after scan, and a doctor telling me not to worry I was young. My heart was broken and no-one seemed to understand.
Luckily I fell again and had my first beautiful baby boy! But the memory of the two lost stayed with me.
We decided to have a second. I got pregnant quickly and we were excited by the prospect of a baby brother or sister. Again the bleeding started, but this time I lost a twin and kept my other little boy.
No amount of time seems to stem the pain of those miscarriages. Not many people understand the feeling of loss, pain and inadequacy, until you find someone who has been through the same. I share my story not for sympathy, but to allow others to see they are not alone. Miscarriage should not be silent; whether you are full term or four weeks the pain is there. We put all our hope and love into that small life inside us and when it is gone we feel lost. Share the love and support fellow Mums. No matter when you lost you will always be a Mum xxxx
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