Part of me didn't believe, didn't want to believe, but I knew deep down that was it.

I have such mixed emotions at times; I miss my baby I lost so much but I know if that hasn't of happened I wouldn't have my baby I have now.

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by Jenny

May 2016

I found out I was pregnant with my second child a week after spending some time in hospital after my son was admitted for severe asthma. After a horrible few days this news really lifted myself and my husband and made us so grateful for what we have. At this point I was just over 4 weeks. 

I then woke up one morning and had to rush to the toilet and there is was, a pool of blood. I had no pain but my heart sank. I continued to bleed and managed to get a scan done at the hospital which was where I was told there was no baby.

Part of me didn't believe, didn't want to believe, but I knew deep down that was it.

I just under 6 weeks. I only ever experienced cramp period like symptoms over the next few days.I told my closest friends and my parents. Everyone was lovely but one sentence really hurt 'at least it was early'. This still really hurts me today as I don't believe it matters how far along you are, it's still a baby, a future that was taken away.

I'm so lucky and grateful that a few months later I found out I was pregnant again and we now have our rainbow baby who fills us with joy. I have such mixed emotions at times though, as I miss my baby I lost so much but I know if that hasn't of happened I wouldn't have my baby I have now. I love all three of my children deeply. It worries me we live in a society that doesn't want to talk about these issues and believe we need more support for both mother's and fathers in these horrible times.

 

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