#misCOURAGE story, 27/04/2017, by Eloise
"It's not good news I'm afraid..." I will never ever forget the way that woman's voice sounded when she told us our baby's heart was no longer beating.
I hear her all the time, mostly when I'm thinking about our baby that would never be, the baby we planned and wanted so much, but often just out of nowhere and then all of a sudden I feel at rock bottom again.
The rest of the world thinks I should be over it by now, I should be moving on. But nobody can see the heartbreak I carry around with me, nobody understands, nobody has any patience. It is nobody's place to tell me when I should stop grieving or blaming myself.
But...it DOES get easier, it's true when people say that. At the time it's so hard to imagine ever feeling ok again but you do, and you will. Find a little piece of happiness from somewhere each day.
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