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I had my first miscarriage at nine weeks in 2009- my first pregnancy.


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#misCOURAGE, 07/07/2017, by Anonymous 

I had my first miscarriage at 9 weeks in 2009 my first pregnancy. I felt quite early into the pregnancy that something wasn't quite right I felt like I was waiting for something to go wrong at 8 weeks I had my first bleed it was only a small amount so the GP said to just wait and see if there's any pain or more blood.

A few days past of no more signs but I just felt like something was wrong I begged my husband to take me to the hospital I kept saying I know the baby is gone I just want to see our baby before it goes he told me to relax and everything would be OK. A few more days passed and I had started bleeding again with cramps we went straight to the out of hours surgery the doctor did an internal and told me my cervix was open so a miscarriage is likely taking place he arranged for a scan to be done the following morning.

I was broken.

The night that followed was perhaps the worst night of my life I was in intense pain and heavily bleeding I sat in the living room alone while my husband slept and cried the morning came and I had passed my baby through the night. I went to the scan but knew there would be nothing on the scan.

There wasn't it was over.

A month later I found out I was pregnant again with my little rainbow baby my incredible daughter who is now 7. I now also have a 4 Year old son. Two perfect children I thought my family was complete. Two weeks ago I found out I was unexpectedly pregnant again I was shocked but happy none the less, but through the week the followed i noticed my pregnancy test lines becoming fainter and in my heart I knew this little one wasn't going to be.

The bleeding and pain began a few days later I went to the hospital and was told with my fainting pregnancy tests and the bleeding a miscarriage was likely happening the next day the bleeding began to get heavier and heavier and I knew it was over.

I feel heartbroken that this happened to us again. 

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