My husband and I were delighted to find out I was pregnant in March 2014 after getting married only 3 months earlier. It was a fairy tale start to our newlywed life together, made even more special as my brother in law and his wife were expecting a new arrival at the same time (our boys were born only 4 days apart).
Last year after I had a bad reaction the contraceptive implant, we decided to see if we would be so lucky again and found out just 2 months later that I was expecting again. I was convinced I was carrying twins as I was symptomatic very early on, but had a scare at 7weeks and was booked in for an early scan.
I just knew our baby was gone.
The scan pointed to a possible molar pregnancy, with a histology (after an elective evacuation) confirming a partial molar pregnancy. We had our beautiful amazing baby boy but were devastated. I had post-loss counselling which led me to seek mental health assistance. I was diagnosed with bipolar type 2 three months ago, just 6 months after our miscarriage.
The honeysuckle team in Liverpool Womens have been amazing (including counselling provided free of charge through the Alder Centre). I am philosophical that our baby didn't materialise so I could receive my diagnosis after several decades completely oblivious to the extent of my underlying but sometimes alarmingly erratic mood-swings.
We know our family will expand when the time is right, if it is meant to be. I have changed as a person since we lost our baby but I couldn't be prouder of the support my family has given me.
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