I am just getting over surgery I had last Monday following of the loss of my 3rd baby. My 1st loss was an ectopic which was misdiagnosed and I nearly lost my life, had emergency surgery as I was bleeding internally as the tube ruptured. I lost my left tube. Devastated I thought I wouldn't conceive but 3 months later I found out I was pregnant, panicking it was another ectopic but Shere delight when it formed correctly. 6/7 weeks I was told it had stopped growing, my world fell apart.
My husband and I were close to breaking point, we had so much tragedy on top of our losses and it was becoming too much.
But we got through it and after 2 and half years of trying but no success we were referred for I.V. F. I was told I had a blockage in my other tube but I could not understand as I had conceived naturally after the ectopic. We are scheduled for treatment this year when I shocking fell pregnant in March 2016.
We truly felt we were finally being blessed and that this would be our little rainbow baby but at 8/9 weeks I was told I had lost my baby again. My world feels so disastrous right now. I've lost my baby, I'm losing my home and my grandfather is dying. How can life be so cruel at once? Why does this keep happening? Why do we not know what causes us to lose something so precious which we want more than anything in life?
When our hearts and minds are dying to hold onto our little bundle but our body rejects it. The pain I feel for my angels, no words, no prayers, no nothing can ease it. I know cos I am carrying it every day. My dear fellow angel mums, we are all heartbroken together, if we can try just 1 little bit to help another, it will help me to know I have helped you with my story. Xxx
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