In 2015 I found out I was pregnant! I was so happy I was gunna be a mum, I had never been so excited.
I told the baby's dad and he told me to get rid of it as he didn't want it, I told him no and how I would raise this baby by myself as long as it had me it didn't matter if he was there or not.
A few weeks later I had some heavy bleeding like I was on my period but I wasn't (obviously) I was so scared so I went to my local hospital and they checked me over..told me the baby was fine but to come back in 2 days for a blood test and check up.
So them two days came by and off I went to the hospital had my bloods done..waited an hour for it to come back and the doctor sat me down and said "Miss Chloe, I am very sorry to tell you this but you've had a misscariage" my heart was broken from then on.
I have never wanted to experience it but that day I knew I wasn't going to be a mum anymore to my precious little baby.
But I know now that my little baby is with my loved ones up there watching down on me and guiding me through the night; I think of it as my fault, I don't know why. Everyone tells me it's not but I just wish I could of done better for my baby.
But I love you my little angel, you'll always be mummy's favourite X
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