#misCOURAGE story, 02/03/2017, by Melanie McConville
Hi my name is Mel I am a very proud mum to 3 wounderful children but I am also mum to 7 beautiful angels.
I had my first daughter when I was just 19 perfect pregnancy from beginning to end. Shortly after I married my husband and we decided straight away we wanted to try for another baby but it was that easy this time 4 years of trying hormone treatment and being told it just might not happen so we decided to stop trying we were lucky we had a little girl many don't have that.
But by the grace of God it happened we got those two lines and was over the moon.
It wasn't the easiest of pregnancies I was sick the whole time in and out of hospital with bleeds but we got there 11 days over due our beautiful baby girl was here.
The year later we weren't even trying we got caught again but we we happy and wanted it so much. But it wasn't meant to be 1 day before our 12 week scan I started to bleed so we rushed to the hospital to be kept waiting hours before being sent home and told to come back tomorrow for a scan.
We sat in the antenatal clinic with all the other pregnant women waiting then our name was called we went in had the scan I think we new as soon as the lady left the room to get someone and it was confirmed our baby's heart beat had stopped and in that moment so did mine.
We decided a few months on that we would try again and we did getting caught quite quickly but again it wasn't meant to be.
We went on to lose another 4 baby's and on the 6th loss was actually told by one of the doctors that it was my own fault for being so stupid for getting myself pregnant after losing so many already. This has haunted me ever since.
So just over 2 years ago I made the decision to be sterilised as I couldn't put me or my family through it again.
While I was talking with the doctor they offered to look in to my miscarriages for me and see if there was anything they could do and it a very hard decision but we thought long and hard spoke to the girls and as a family we decided to go for it one last time.
And am I glad I did because now I have my rainbow baby my son who is nearly 2 now.
We did go one to catch pregnant again last year but sadly we lost yet another baby.
My angels will forever be carried in my heart.
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