#misCOURAGE story by Raquel Pestana,
Its been a month since we lost our baby, one of the toughest moment of my life. All started with some symptoms, I didn't even know I was pregnant, period was 3 days late, decided to do a pregnancy test and I got a big fat positive. Me and my partner were so happy, we have been trying and finally it happened.
On week 6 of my pregnancy, I started feeling cramps, very painful and some light bleeding. I decided to go to the Hospital where it was confirmed we could be losing our baby, a few days after hcg levels dropped. We were so broken when we heard this sad news.
I know that miscarriage is a natural common event but I never thought this would happen to me. When I saw that positive test we had dreamed about so many things and just days after it was all gone. It's heart breaking, everything changed since then.
Now I see women pregnant and babies everywhere, they were there before, but now I feel like they are here just to punish me. I have better days and worst days, sometimes I want to cry, sometimes I want to move on. Most of my friends and family don't understand my pain, so I end up pushing them away.
The good thing of all of this, now I have learnt to appreciate the small things in life, live day by day without any rush.
Right now I'm still confused, I'm still trying to find the new me because everything changed.
Stay Strong & I will never forget my Angel.
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