It had taken myself and my partner nearly a year to conceive as I already knew I would have problems with being able to get pregnant.
However, mid July I just felt different I decided to do a pregnancy test and discovered I was in fact pregnant. Now I don't have periods and rarely ovulate so its a guessing game as to when to have sex.
So we were over the moon to finally get there.
All my envy of friends who accidentally got pregnant or tried for a month and fell straight away had gone.
Aug 18th we had a scan to see how far along I was and.'peanut' was around 7 weeks.
I was really nervous as me and my partner had booked a 10 day holiday before I knew we were expecting but. I got assured that everything was fine and to enjoy myself.
We got back sept 9th knowing our 3 month official dating scan was 16th Sept. I was so excited to see peanut mainly for reassurance.
However, morning of 12th I was experiencing slight pain and aching in my lower tummy. A few hours later I was in the toilet looking at a lot of blood instantly I was so scared and deep down I knew what was happening.
My midwife got us a emergency appointment at the early pregnancy unit and I had a scan, we were told that peanut had stopped growing and he was not measuring where he should be along with no heartbeat.
I have a re scan in a weeks time to make sure everything is okay.
Part of me does not want to go to be told all over again that peanut is no longer there.
At the moment I am just heartbroken and just sad, there is just no other word then sad. I know these things happen and there is no fault. Hopefully with time it will get easier and we can try again.
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