Little did I know my happiness bubble was about to burst

2 years later I'm now facing the very real fact that I may never be a mum and that scares me more than anything, I can't cope with the thought of never having a baby.

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October 2016

Sophie

Since being very young I'd longed to be a mummy.

May 2014 I was in a place where I considered myself to be ready to start a family.

September that year after family friends and my partner pestered me to take a test I did.

Saturday morning before work test says pregnant no way I thought so I took the next one.

Pregnant, wow I thought this is the best day ever I couldn't stop smiling, I was around 5 weeks and couldn't of been happier.

Weeks went by had an appointment to see the midwife on a Tuesday

Little did I know my happiness bubble was about to burst.

Sunday morning I go to work half way through the day I see spotting.

Monday morning miscarriage confirmed why now 10 weeks pregnant why I was broken but I couldn't cry, couldn't talk wouldn't eat I shut myself off nothing or no one could get through to me.

Why can't I have my baby jelly bean, thoughts of what did I do wrong is it my fault.

2 years later I'm now facing the very real fact that I may never be a mum and that scares me more than anything, I can't cope with the thought of never having a baby.

I'm jealous of everyone I even cried my heart out when my sister told me she was having her first.

I felt selfish I couldn't enjoy her pregnancy with her family didn't mention it when I was around.

Now I have a beautiful niece who every day I look after her I cry.

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