#misCOURAGE story, 29/03/2017, by anonymous
My husband and I have 2 beautiful children, but we decided to add on to our family. Two years ago I got the IUD removed and we started trying right away.
A year and a half went by and I just had a "feeling" so we bought pregnancy test and it was a faint positive. We tried not to get too excited because it was faint so I took another test that next morning and the positive sign was darker this time.
We were so excited that it had finally happened!
Then came time for my ultrasound where we were around 6-7 weeks, but the baby was only measuring 4-5 weeks, and we thought since my periods were off that could be the reasoning why.
The doctors told me we would do another ultrasound in two weeks to make sure baby was still growing and to be optimistic. A few days later I started spotting, which turned into a miscarriage Oct. 30, 2016.
We were heartbroken, but after some time we decided we would still like to try for another baby.
January came and we found out we were expecting again. We were both excited and scared at the same time, we had been through so much, and the chances of having 2 miscarries in a row weren't all that common. So we decided to keep things quiet and not tell family just in case.
We went for our first ultrasound which we should have been around 8 weeks then, but we were measuring a little behind at 6 weeks, which was no big problem because we heard our baby's heartbeat! We were so thrilled!!
So we told everyone and we went ahead and bought things for our baby because we knew everything was going to be just great with our new little addition to our family.
We went back for another ultrasound two weeks later on March 2nd to make sure our little baby was still doing good. But the ultrasound of our baby hadn't grown since our last visit, and our babys heart was no longer beating.
I couldn't believe it was happening to us all over again.
We thought for sure this baby would be fine. I had prayed almost daily for our child I was carrying. My husband had also prayed. We didn't understand why this happened. We still don't.
It's amazing how much love our hearts can feel for someone we haven't met.
Even though I struggle through some days, I know that my baby is comforted with God and with my Dad who is in heaven, singing songs to them and holding them.
Strength comes from within, sometimes it takes all that you've got to get through the day, but you can make it.
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