#misCOURAGE story, 08/03/2017, by Laura
From being little, all I ever dreamed of was a family.
At 19, I finally got my wish when I found out I was expecting a baby. Although we had not planned to fall pregnant at this time due to university, from the moment I found out, I was filled with excitement and love for our little baby.
A natural worrier, every time I felt a twinge or pain I panicked and worried that I wasn't doing things properly or I was overdoing it so my partner booked an early scan at 6 weeks to put our minds at ease.
At our scan we saw our tiny baby and saw their little heart flickering - instantly I relaxed and the love I felt soared.
I continued on for the next week planning for the future and getting excited about our new arrival.
At 7wks 4days I felt slight cramping but was told not to worry as there was no bleeding, after a few days of cramps I began to experience light bleeding and instantly I knew that this wasn't normal!
I attended A&E where I was referred for a scan to check baby - I was given an internal scan where I was shown a heartbeat and told my baby was fine and I was around 8weeks and that the bleeding was 'Normal'.
As I walked down the hospital stairs I passed our beautiful tiny baby, I was told the pregnancy had came away despite the baby being okay minutes earlier.
I left our special little angel at the hospital along with my broken heart.
It's difficult to share my story as miscarriage is such a taboo subject that nobody talks about, but sometimes the silence of the whole thing is overwhelming.
It's easy for people to say that we can try again or that maybe it was for the best.. but actually the reality is that nobody ever deserves to feel this pain, or to be told to try again to get over a loss.
I never thought I would have to go through this, I thought I would be one of the lucky ones.. my heart goes out to every single person who has experienced or experiences a loss of a pregnancy or baby.
If love alone could have saved our angels, they would have lived forever xxx
Please note that the opinions expressed by users in Tommy’s Book of #misCOURAGE are solely those of the user, who is unlikely to have had medical training. These opinions do not represent the opinions of Tommy’s and are not advice from Tommy's. Reading individual, real-life experiences can be a helpful resource, but it is never a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis or treatment from a qualified health care provider. We strongly advise readers not to take drugs that are not prescribed by your qualified healthcare provider. If you think you may have a medical emergency, call your doctor, midwife or hospital immediately. Read full disclaimer