I kept thinking if I did things differently would my baby have survived.

by Hannah

I'm glad I didn't give up trying.

Heartbreaking stories. Devastating stories. The miscarriage story needs to change. That's why we've created Tommy's book of #misCOURAGE. Read this story now and help spread the word that miscarriage can no longer be ignored. Help us change the story to save babies' lives.


May 2016

When I found out I was pregnant I was over the moon as it was my first pregnancy and me and my partner's first time for it all. I had a lot of pains throughout my pregnancy, but I just put the pains down to everything expanding and stretching and making room for my baby. When I got further on I noticed I had spots of blood so I went to have a scan and then they broke the news to me that there was a baby in my sack but there was no heartbeat.

I was absolutely devastated and I blamed myself and kept thinking if I did things differently would my baby have survived. We grieved for our baby for a few months before trying again. We started to try again and found out I was pregnant when we'd been trying for 5 months. I was excited to find out I was pregnant but at the same time I was scared that I may have a miscarriage with what happened last time.

I was so overwhelmed and stayed positive throughout my pregnancy.

When I went for my first 12 week scan I can remember being terrified in case anything was wrong.

When they showed us our baby on the screen she was jumping and bouncing around and she was perfectly healthy.

Then when the 20 week scan came she was bouncing around again I was so relieved that everything worked out. I'm glad I didn't give up on trying. Miscarriage is a terrible thing and you never really come to terms with the loss you just learn to deal with it but you never forget the baby that's touched your heart. I'm so thankful for my rainbow baby I love her to pieces and wouldn't change her for anything!

Never give up on what you want you deserve to be happy!

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