by Jayne Lee
Where do you begin? My journey to have a second child feels like a never-ending battle. I've been trying for a baby for nearly 5 years. I wanted to give my beautiful son a brother or sister and the heartache is not just ours because he wants it desperately too.
At first I could not conceive and for two years there was nothing, I was then referred to a wonderful doctor Mr Davies at Northampton General Hospital who shared my sadness but gave me hope. I was put on medication to help me conceive, I was on Clomid and four months later I was pregnant.
I was overjoyed but this was when the battle to keep my babies began.
Now three years on and 14 miscarriages later, including two sets of twins, - I've had NK killer cell tests, biopsies, scratch test various blood tests, D&C's and now all I'm told that there are no more tests or help.
It's just a case of keep trying, keep losing, keep hurting - my clock is ticking, I'm not young I'm 38 and I need answers, I need help, I need my babies to live.
Now I'm on my own with no more help. I'm allowed all the scans to check my fertility and Clomid to help me conceive but they don't help keep my babies when I'm lucky enough to get one, they get taken from me with no answers to why....
I hope that research centres find answers so that people don't have to suffer the way I am - it's not much to ask to keep your baby, it's mine and I love them all.
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