#misCOURAGE story, 25/01/2016, by Christina
I had a missed miscarriage in June 2016 at 16 weeks and really bad experience with hospital, and no aftercare.
I'm scared to get pregnant again as no one gave me answers to why? This happened.
Everything was great had my 12 weeks scan saw Bean jumping around even got the all clear with all the test you have to have even on my 16 week scan midwife said she heard the heartbeat.
I started to bleed on 21st June was worried, tried to call my midwife no answer so went to A&E, 12 hours just sitting around was sent home, advised everything was OK.
Then the 22nd June, I phoned midwife no answer again so phoned hospital, advised to come back I waited again on my own to be seen, to be told come back 4 days later for a scan to check as they didn't know what to do with me as I was not early pregnancy or late pregnancy and because my midwife never phoned nothing they could do.
I was so upset I started crying saying please tell me what happened. So after other 4 hours, Doctor got me sent to labour ward for a scan with my partner now and son who is only 10 years old.
She then scanned me and I saw my little baby bean in a ball really white to be told he has died, just like that I was in shock my son started crying I was annoyed, in front of my son.
They left me for hour which my partner just wanted to go so I walked out of door to lots of new born babies I started to breakdown it was like a horror movie.
Next day I went back to have it confirmed and was advised I would have to wait a week to have baby removed as the scann, which I don't understand, showed the baby was 12 weeks in size.
It was so hard waiting, I could feel my womb dropping and it was so hard to carry bean around.
After the operation we buried bean with my family member who had passed.
My problem now is I had no after care support, I got no one to talk to, I have lost my job as I have lost my confidence and I'm scared to get pregnant, but want so much to get pregnant.
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