In 2014 me and my partner thought it would be a great idea to try conceive and give our little girl a little brother or sister( our daughter is 6 now.) I fell pregnant we were so over the moon with excitement went on to make an appointment with the midwife I was about 7/8weeks went through all the paper work and waited patiently for my letter for my 12 week scan. It arrived!! Dated January 13th I would be 13weeks.
We carried on with day to day life decided to break the news to our daughter.but sadly on January 7th a week before my scan I started to bleed. Very scared I rang my GP who said" it sounds like miscarriage you are best off staying at home and ride it out." I did exactly that.I got my mum up for help. It got to 3pm time for my daughter to come home from school I went to get my shoes on and my whole world fell apart I was defiantly miscarrying. I cried in pain and with emotion.
I had to go upstairs hide away from my daughter whilst I carried on with my miscarriage in silence. I couldn't let her know anything was as wrong my mum cared for her,as I thought the worst had passed I went layed on the bed my partner had come home from work.I rushed to the loo as I felt pain passed yet another huge amount of clotting and bleeding. I felt ill, collapsed on the bathroom floor, this is when my partner had to call for professional help and they sent an ambulance for me.
The nurses were ever so lovely I went on the next morning for a scan to make sure the miscarriage was complete and that I was ok to go home. I had to tell my daughter that the baby in mummy's tummy was poorly and sadly had disappeared it was so heartbreaking. A couple months passed we decided to try again I miscarried again on the 10th June 2015 I was 12 weeks. Well a whole year has passed I have given myself plenty of time to heal. We are going to try again but there is a huge amount of fear and anxiety surrounding us. We just hope one day we will be lucky and have our baby.
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