It was a Monday morning and I was 5 months pregnant and excited for my 20week scan which was going to be on the Wednesday. It was now when I would feel light movements around my tummy and my bump had grown a lot.
I was looking forward to finding out the gender of my baby. But unfortunately I was at work when my contractions started and told my friend that I was having a tummy ache as it was mild (little did I know they were contractions).
That evening I couldn't sleep so took a paracetamol thinking the pain would ease.
Tuesday the pain continued and became more of a sharp pain . To my horror I found out I was bleeding and panicked. My contractions began to get stronger as I reached A&E. They monitored me and the baby's heart beat was strong going. I was told that my body had gone into early labour and that I would be giving birth in the next 12 hours.
My heart sank as I knew that it would be too small to survive and by law it needs to be 24weeks to go in an incubator to make it through.
It was EXTREMELY hard to sink that information in as I wanted to just cry my heart out but was baring the pain and had to be strong to get through this.
I had my mother with me who helped me through out the night and gave me so much strength and support. I was totally in shock as it was so unexpected. At 3.35am I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy named Mohammed. He was my first child and this was my first pregnancy. He was placed in my arms and I had about 6 minutes with him before he passed away once my cord was cut.
The pain physically and emotionally can never go away and has hurt me deeply but giving birth has made me appreciate the beauty of being a mother whether your child is here or not and it is truly a miracle the whole process of pregnancy and birth.
I never got any proper answers as to why this happened but I know God has a reason for everything and Heaven has gained a new Angel.
Verily after hardship comes Ease.
Any woman who has suffered from miscarriage/premature birth/stillborn or any other sort can never forget that child or those moments as they stay in the heart for a life time.
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By Anonymous (not verified) on 5 Dec 2016 - 21:05
What is benefit of delay cord clamping?
By Midwife @Tommys on 6 Dec 2016 - 14:21
In healthy term babies, the evidence supports deferring clamping of the umbilical cord for up to 5 minutes, as this
appears to improve iron stores in infancy.