I felt responsible, this was my fault, like I'd done something wrong.

by Kelly Jones

I became angry, upset and felt alone.

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May 2016

January 2015 my partner and I find out we were expecting. We were both full of emotions, shocked as we didn't expect to conceive so quickly, we felt excitement and happiness. A new baby to add to our family, then worry, after all, we needed our first check up to make sure baby and I (mummy to be) were OK. I felt overwhelming love for my baby the instant I knew he or she was there.

January 28th at the doctor's check up confirmed the pregnancy and we booked the first midwife appointment for 6 weeks time. February 16th, I woke up needing the toilet again; the joys of pregnancy, I thought. I was stunned to find I was bleeding, I sat in shock and then fear came, my baby!! I sadly lost our baby on February 18th. I was 6 weeks but according to consultants and blood results my pregnancy failed at 3 weeks.

I felt responsible, this was my fault, like I'd done something wrong.

My heart was breaking; why had this happened to us? I became angry, upset and felt alone. I was in a very dark lonely place, no one to turn to and if I did, would they understand? Miscarriage is heartbreaking. 

My partner and I decided we would try again when the time was right. A couple of weeks pass, I became ill and on 18th March 2016 and we find out were expecting again!! That quick!! No menstrual cycle in between, this must be mistake?!

Consultants confirmed the new pregnancy and monitored me and our baby over the next few weeks. These weeks turn to months and I'm over the moon to say our "rainbow baby" was born safely on 23rd November 2015, 

Henry Ralph 8lbs 2.5ozs. We are blessed and cherish every moment with him. We will never forget our little baby we didn't meet he or she will have a special place in our hearts forever x

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