I couldn't stop crying to the fact I wasn't going to be a mum

I couldn't even talk to my closest friends because they were pregnant and everything was going alright for them.

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October 2016

I found out in July 2016 that I was expecting my first child and was due the beginning of march 2017 was feeling great, me and my partner were excited on the news had midwife appointment and then had my scan date through the 16th of August 2016 for my 12 week scan I was excited but nervous at the same time hoping everything would be alright.

Went to the hospital and had a scan on my belly and the women said to me could she do an internal scan as it doesn't look like a 12 week baby I knew something wasn't right straightaway but agreed to it as I laid there all I could think about was is everything okay but when she had finished she said the news I dreaded that my little baby had no heartbeat and I had a missed miscarriage and baby's heart stopped beating at 6-8 weeks and I didn't know I just cried and thought it might had been me.

They gave me a letter and some leaflets and told me to call a number to see what was next and I phoned the number when I got home and got booked in for an operation the next day I was so nervous and couldn't stop crying to the fact I wasn't going to be a mum, I agreed to them doing some tests on the tissue they took from me and it came back that I also had a partial molar pregnancy where baby had to many chromosomes I was gutted but at least I knew it wasn't my fault or my partners it was just one of those things that happen and now I have to have some tests done to make sure my HCG levels go back down to 0 before I can even begin to try again but even to this day I was unable to talk to anyone and I couldn't even talk to my closest friends because they were pregnant and everything was going alright for them it's heartbreaking to think about it and to think that could have been me.

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