#misCOURAGE story, 29/03/2017, by Abbigail
I've had 3 miscarriages. I never believed it would happen to me.
When I found out I was expecting with my first child I was nervous but over the moon. I had bleeding at the start & cramping but thought it was normal, then I started clotting.
I was sent for my first scan excited to see my baby. I arrived and they scanned me.
I waited for a baby to pop up on the screen & then heard the words, I'm sorry you've had an early miscarriage.
My heart broke.
I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I blamed myself for everything. I didn't want to go out.
When I found out I was pregnant the second time I was over the moon but was nervous at the same time.
I had the scan and remembered what happened the first time.
My heart was beating fast and they said 'sorry Abbi there's no heart beat but this is your baby.'
I was 6 weeks and seeing my little Angel on the screen was so emotional, they scanned me again at 8 weeks my Angel grew a little but still no heartbeat. I had another miscarriage.
My 3rd pregnancy. I had cramps & bleeding and I knew straight away. They said those words again but no baby was shown.
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