I can't explain
Story of #miscourage by Anonymous,
I can't explain.......
I am so sad
I can't explain the way I feel
Its like my heart has been delivered
I can't explain the pain I feel
I feel so low
Like down below the core of my soul
Want to talk
Don't know
I miss my future life
I miss the mights and could be
I miss my baby boy
If only
I think its all my fault
My mistake
My problem
My ache
My tears won't run dry
I can't explain the way I feel
I can't let go
I just want my baby in my arms
The day was cold
The final goodbye
His heart was so strong
He took mine
I feel so shattered
So broken inside
I miss my baby so much
I can't hide the pain no matter how hard I try
The memories I have are of joy and tears of the day I found out he was mine
Every minute of every day was a lifetime waiting for him to grow but not die
He wasn't alone
His twin was long gone
It broke my heart
But I had hope in the one
My baby boy
My loss is so strong
I look at him
And don't want to let go
I feel so much sorrow
So much grief
I can't explain the way I feel
We had issues
But they were just a little scare
His heart was still beating
And he was still there
I hoped he would be ok
Constantly worrying every second of every day
When I had issues with my health
I didn't care
As long as he was alive
My fear was of him not being there
I love him so much
I can't explain
He is my first
My only
My dreams
My life
My happiness
My Everything
He is gone
I can't stop the pain
I can't explain how I feel
I can't explain the pain
I miss him so dearly
I wish he was here
The night they told me he would be gone
Was the worst of my life
I begged for help
I begged for his life
I would have done Anything
Anything
Anything
Anything
For him to stay
The love I have for him
I can't explain
I had to wait for his departure
I wanted time to go slowly for a change
I wanted him to stay
He was so good to me
I can't explain
His heart was beating
Right to the end
He was so good to me
No physical pain
The experience of labour
Was my pleasure
My gain
He caused me no harm
He was a joy
My life
My loss
Gone away
I put him in my arms
I couldn't believe he went
I didn't want to let go
He was our baby boy
His name is Haadi Isa
When we found out he was a twin
Laurel and Hardy were our comedy pair
Laurel left us and now Haadi is there
His second name was after Jesus
His mother experienced hardship
My inspiration
Haadi
The Guide
Isa
The son of Mariam
He was so beautiful
Looked like my husband and I
Christmas Eve was the day
I didn't want to take my eyes off him
But I had to give him away
We planned our life around him
Everything gone
Forever gone away
We came home to burry him
On Christmas Day...
In the cold
I just wanted to keep him warm
I screamed 'no'
Because I didn't want to let go
My baby boy
Forever gone
I love him so much
My only peace is that he will go straight to Heaven
I wish he was with me
But I should not cry
He is my angel in the sky
I love him so much
I can't explain...
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