#misCOURAGE story, 02/03/2017, by Lisa
When you become pregnant for the first time you think that nothing is going to go wrong and the pregnancy will be a breeze...well that is what I thought.
It wasn't until I suffered two consecutive miscarriages towards the end of last year, I realised it wasn't so easy.
We got married in May last year and wanted to start trying for a family in a relaxed sort of it'll happen when it happens way. To my surprise it didn't take long and I was pregnant within a few months.
I was only 6 weeks along when I suffered the miscarriage and it was devastating.
It came at a really rubbish time as my Papa passed away two days before it occurred. I'm not sure if maybe this had something to do with it but I try to tell myself it wasn't meant to be and there must have been a problem with baby.
The miscarriage itself was horrible, bleeding uncontrollably knowing that you are losing you're baby. I will never forget that moment when it came and I realised it was over.
I went to the Doctor and was given no support. I was basically told just to get on with it and it happens quite a lot but to me it felt like my world was falling to bits.
I tried to get on with life but suffering two losses in the same week was just too difficult. I spent a lot of time in bed and just wanted to cry and sleep most of the time.
It took me a few weeks to get back on my feet and I noticed that my period was late.
I thought nothing of this as I had read online it sometimes takes a while for your period to get back into sync after a miscarriage.
After a week I took a test and to my disbelief it was positive. I couldn't believe my eyes and when I showed my husband he was in shock.
Unfortunately again at 6 weeks I started to bleed and knew the inevitable was going to happen. Another devastating loss just 6 weeks after the previous.
We are now taking a break from trying and focusing on being the best people we can be. I've decided it best for me to get over these losses fully before I go through it again.
I never realised that it happens quite a lot until I started to open up to close friends and family and they started to share their stories with me. Who knows, hopefully there is a rainbow waiting around the corner.
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