Story of #miscourage by Summer
We have been blessed with 2 beautiful girls so we came to conclusion that our family was complete until one day by accident.
I had been feeling a bit rough and my husband suggested going to see the doctor as it had been going on for weeks, knowing that our doctors had a habit of making any woman feeling a bit off do a pregnancy test I thought I would do one at home to save all the hassle.
You can imagine my surprise when it came out positive!
We were both shocked but quickly came round to the idea. My husband thought I'd better give the early pregnancy unit a ring as I suffered eroding cervix with both of my girls which can cause me to lose quite a bit of blood. I rang them and they had me straight in to scan me to check my dates.
I was so excited to the prospect of seeing that little 'bean' on the screen.
As she scanned me she told me I was approximately 8 weeks but the heartbeat was a little weak. My heart crashed, did this mean I wasn't going to see a beautiful little face at the end of all this? I went home with a date to go back in 10 days to double check everything but as we left the midwife hugged me saying not to get my hopes up.
It was like my body knew what was said as by the time we got home a peicing pain when though me and I know it was over.
I lost it over the next 24 hrs, I have never cried more since. I will always love my little bean even if I only got to see it once. I will always love it even for the short time we had.
People ask me how do you go on, you just do but you never forget.
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