#misCOURAGE story by Tara,
Today was the due date of our second baby. Today there is fog over my head, I am hurting and can’t pretend to be happy.
It has been six months since our first missed miscarriage and two months since our second.
During this time I have felt jealous, angry, guilty, worthless, bitter, numb, seeing parts of me I wish not to again. I never thought this would happen to us. It is okay not to be okay.
It has got easier over time. There are now more good than bad days.
Storm clouds still hover but one day our rainbow may appear.
I was in two minds whether to write this but there is a need for people to talk more openly so this is for awareness not sympathy.
For now I will hug my son that little bit tighter and understand how lucky I am to have him making my world a brighter place.
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