All I could say was "I want my baby back inside my belly"

I was at this point upset and confused. I thought my baby was still inside me.

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October 2016

So I was walking to the shop one day, and my hips starting hurting and I automatically knew I was pregnant so I took the test.

I was only 19 at the time, but I was so overwhelmed and happy about the situation.

I went to have my 12 week scan, and instead of the nurse being happy to show me what was on the screen, I didn't get to see anything at all. Couldn't even hear a heartbeat.

She told me that I'm not as far along as I thought and she can't find anything on the screen. She told me to come back in a few weeks if I haven't miscarried by then. I left the room really confused and upset. I had no idea what was going on.

A week later, I woke up in the night and needed to pee really bad so I ran downstairs and turned the light on, only to realise behind me was a long trail of blood, and lots of it.

I started crying and panicking while sitting on the toilet, shouted out for help "I'm having a miscarriage!! Help!!" As I just stared down at the blood on the floor in front of me.

I felt something come out of me, I didn't think it was anything serious, so I flushed it all away and got off the toilet while I had an ambulance called for me.

I was at this point upset and confused. I thought my baby was still inside me.

As I laid in the ambulance, they asked me where I miscarried to because they need to collect it, I said it's still in me.

So I got to a&e, where I had a scan only to find there was nothing in there. I then realised I had flushed my baby away. When I got home, I cried for days and all I could say was "I want my baby back inside my belly".

I was heartbroken.

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