#misCOURAGE 01/11/17 by Chenai M.
Well, I never know how to start these things but I'm sure the end will be beautiful.
I've got 3 angels in heaven. First one MJ got taken 11/10/14, secondly Simba got taken 02/5/16 and thirdly Angel got taken 09/7/17. My pain has changed me alot. I have times when I feel like giving up, then I think about my circumstances and how much happiness in life I deserve. But then I also have my reality moments.
Let me call them reality days, when I think if I'm ever able to carry full term. My babies where the hope that I was looking for. Each time I got pregnant it was a surprise but it made me more motivated with bettering myself and my life. Then that light goes, all of them have been during my second trimester which made it worse. When you start feeling those butterflies and begin having plans for this little person.
The scans the cravings the prayers and the hopes for the future. I have always been someone who believes in everything happens for a reason but when something happens THRICE I can only try to be positive. I keep trying to be positive for my partner and he is with me and I am very grateful for him.
As a woman it makes me feel some type of way because this is what we are meant to do. I continue to remain positive because I have heard people who have gone to have children so I will continue to remain positive. Any ladies who are going through this, either it be your first time, all I can say is make sure you have the right people around you. People who support how YOU are feeling not how you're supposed to feel.
Don't be too hard on yourself and focus on yourself. If you're in a stable relationship DON'T shadow your feelings. Make sure you speak to each other because at the end of the day its a loss for both of you. If you are single, then focus more on yourself. Don't look for comfort in the wrong places and always believe we can do it again.
That's the best thing we can do ladies its to support each other. Children are a blessing and our little angels are always looking down on us. They are and ALWAYS will be Too Beautiful For Earth.
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By Naa (not verified) on 7 Nov 2017 - 21:35
“Our angels are looking down on us... too beautiful for earth.” Precious, thanks for sharing your portic thoughts. Keep believing!